It was the last day of summer and the first day of my romance. It was a LIT. Every single moment of it was delightful.
Writing about that day causes those feelings come alive for me.
I was looking at the sky and its marvelous light and dark clouds. They were totally faded in such a way that there was no borderline between them. The dark clouds were carrying the first fall rain.
I was waiting for the rain since the noon.
Staring at the sky, I drank a glass of water and unconsciously said "CHEERS".
Are you with me so far?
It was the peak of my lovey-dovey experience.
It felt like that all of my cells were happy. I was over the moon, experiencing such a positive excitement and enthusiasm as if the most beautiful event of my life had been happened.
But that day was as ordinary as other ones. Just I was feeling differently.
Yea, the only difference was my MOOD, my own "inner states and sensations".
As I was walking in the garden and looking at the sky, a lot of leaves were suddenly raised. Many dandelions started dancing with the breeze. Even a plastic bag flying at the sky delighted me.
The sound of the wind whispering through the threes, the smell of the rain and wet soil. Can you remember this scent right now?
The sound of rain drops falling on the leaves, the rainy clouds covering the sky like a gray curtain. Can you imagine such a pleasant scene?
When the rain got stronger, I jumped in the middle of the yard, yelling "wow, it's raining".
While opening my hands, having a smile on my face and looking at the sky, I whispered "my love! I love you. I feel good with you, no matter what difficulties I'm experiencing. The only truth is YOU and ME".
It was amazing! I've never ever had such a unique experience before. I was enjoying with all my heart and soul.
An inner joy without any specific reason!
But I've a secret.
Want to know my secret?
I was present. My secret is to be "here and now".
That day, I didn't experience just being alive, but I experienced living; I experienced a very very high frequency.
I was full of LOVE. I was overwhelmingly in love with my creator, myself, the nature within my vision, my cherished cat and anything I saw or thought of.
It was only HE and ME!
How good it is to toast to HIM and OURSELVES every day, breathe with a deep love and go to sleep while saying Him "kiss you by heart".
we'd be better to bear it in mind that there's one who's all set for us every second to talk, go for a walk, dance, drink a cup of tea, laugh, and do crazy things with.
So, why do we feel lonely? Why are we missing? Why do we get depressed? Why do we await someone or something to live happily and vibrantly?
You know?
Whenever someone leaves us alone for any possible reason, He wants to clear our time for himself. He’s going to make us fall in love with ourselves trough disconnecting another one and spending time with ourselves and learning to live without the fear of abandonment and being alone. That way, no one will leave us alone! Why? cause we're not in need of another people to feel happy anymore.
Create such a glorious version of yourself in your own loneliness that no one can lose you just because of themselves and just because of who you are.
Come clean! Have you ever thought about it in this way?
I told such an invaluable point through these lines that you can find it only through several psychological consultation sessions. I learned it in the middle of a challenging story of my life. Now, it's your choice. Take it or leave it. But if I were you, I wouldn't ignore such a sage advice.
Think about what you read deeply.
As my master says, "true love is a stage, not a stuff that you can find it. You should achieve that stage to experience it".
To make the long story short, you will experience true love only when you learn self-love, feel great with yourself and live your life fearlessly.
Take a look at Persian version for more details (here).
Take good care of yourself. You're very prize.
