Well...how am I gonna start?
Who should I exactly talk about? And who's gonna care?
Actually I'm here just to make myself feel better after every fucking things I've been through
It's been almost two years... let me be honest to you
Studying is going to be my most important goal in my life but in the same time it's the worst thing ever
I know I've been really bad at that... but seriously it's not something I can handle ... it's not what I deserve now
I know I couldn't even pass the final exams the way I wanted to but swear to God from the first day of the year I'm doing nothing but studying
And is this what I really deserve?
Having 28 classmates that they're definitely all bitch as fuck ...like I'm just asking myself how they can be with everyboys in the same time? And how can they call this "love"?
The second thing that hurts me a lot...is definitely me dyeing because of this much loneliness....for God sake I need my friends....I can't meet them cause we moved to Tehran for studying and University but they're doing everything but studying....is there anyone to understand the pain in my heart? No there's not....I don't wanna say bullshits... but I hate this period of my life.... compression and judgement is what I face with everyday. And now...I always ask myself...can I end up this one day?or should I end up myself?
Nevermind....
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