Sometimes I feel like there's something deeply wrong about me. One minute everything seems normal but the next minute I feel this infinite hole figuring out his way inside me. At that moment I start to question my whole life. I think about every mistake I've made, every person I've hurt and all those moments that I felt like this. Like shit.
It's like now and again, I tend to have these episodes of guilt and shame about who I am. Or better to say what I am. I don't know! Maybe I'm just a crazy ass person or maybe I'm having one of those episodes again!
Is this a confession? Or just residues of a man's brain who is barely sleeping these days? Who can tell?! And actually it doesn't even matter. Cause it's just a feeling and feelings come and go. They're not permanent and sometimes they're extremely deceiving. I should be more careful about them and I shouldn't trust them easily. They can make reality upside-down and so blurry. "I should concider everything not just my feelings" someone told me a few days go.
Idk... I just hope in the end I won't be sorry and I'll find the piece and satisfaction I've always wished for. I wish the same thing for u :)
